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R.I.P. Dad

My dad passed away on the 2nd of June, 2012. He went into the hospital around October 2011 to have his gallbladder removed after having pain there. It was discovered that he had cancer. It spread rather fast. This happened not long after his brother passed away, and about a year after his other brother passed away. One brother is left. Richard Dawson (original host of Family Feud), whom I had a fansite for since 2000, passed away a little over an hour after my dad (also named Richard). There were a lot of things I didn’t get to do with my dad, but he was always there for me and gave me everything I needed. He wasn’t perfect, but he was the best dad I could have asked for. I’m so glad that my boyfriend Johnny got to meet him last year.


I am happy!

Once again, it’s been a while since I made a new entry. I’ve been so involved with my FaceBook & Tumblr accounts, that I forget about this site. Plus not many people look on here, anyway.

So, what’s new with me? My boyfriend (Johnny) came to visit at the end of May and stayed until the middle of July. That was amazing. We really hit it off well. We went to a lot of local stores and restaurants as well as the Inner Harbour (Aquarium and Science Centre). We had so much fun. I have a lot of photos of us up on my FaceBook if anyone is interested.

While he was here, I saw the cutest bunny in the pet store (which I didn’t intend to buy from, but this girl was so adorable). My mom let me get her and we named her Dinky (Dinky II, actually, since I had a male bunny named Dinky years ago). She’s the cutest thing!

My one (sweet) rat (Max) died many months ago. Dudley (the biter) is about 3 years old now and has balance problems, but he’s still his perky self.

Since I don’t post here often, I never mentioned my friend Sam. During Johnny’s and my off-time where he was with someone else, I decided to agree to meet this girl offline last year. We went to the fair. We didn’t talk much, both were shy, we bonded over the goats. We stopped at McDonald’s (where she used to work) and we sat for a bit and had a sweet tea. Seeing her with her friends and being herself made me see her totally differently and I felt better about it all. She was a big girl, a bit shorter than I am, tattoos and piercings. She was a goofball, like me. We hung out several times, went to a movie, hung out at her aunt’s place, etc. After the 3rd meeting, I was able to be myself around her with no hesitations. I got to see her get her tattoo touched up. We had fun. We were both recently dumped, so we bonded over there, as well.

Things were going well, we chatted online a lot. I was moving a bit too slow for her, so she agreed to go meet this other girl and then said she was unsure about it all, but they ended up meeting and getting together. I felt a bit hurt, we parted ways, Johnny and I got back together, Sam and her girl broke up, we got back in touch in 2011 and decided to hang out. We went to the mall and had fun. She was about to get her own car back the following week and we were gonna go see a movie then. We talked one night online and the next day, I saw on her FaceBook that she had passed away in her sleep. I was a wreck. I finally go out and meet someone, we become good friends and get along great and then I lose her. I didn’t have the strength to go to the funeral. I just hope she’s happier where she is, because she certainly deserves happiness. She always had love from people and I hope she realizes that.

Anyway, I started therapy (basically small chats and medication trials) for my anxiety and depression. A few months ago I started seeing a psychologist. Just talking about things really helps. I’ve been on so many different medications (limited to what Wal-Mart covers) but none have worked. My doc says she can notice a little change, though.

Oh, I started to stretch my ears. I’m on 4g at the moment. I like how it looks. Mowhawk hair is still going on. Dare to be yourself. Dare to be different. Dare to like it.

I hope everyone is doing well. Hit me up on the linked sites above to keep in better touch with me!

2011 is here!

Wow, I logged in to change some minor things on my account and saw it had switched over to so I had to spend over an hour setting all this up. I don’t even use this, but whatever.

Just wanted to say how much in love I am with Johnny Sellen! My life has changed so much (for the better!) since I met him on the 14th of November, 2009. We started dating on the 3rd of February 2010. Even though we had a few months of off-time, we’re back together and even more in love now. I can’t wait for him to come visit me. It’s hard being in love with someone who lives in a whole other state (where I was originally born!) but I know we’ll make it work. It’s my first relationship and I can’t imagine my life without him. Who woulda thought that it would take me almost 33 years to fall in love with someone (whom I thought was a girl at the time, but soon learned he was rather interested in living as a man). I get both of both worlds in a way. And I’m quite pleased.

I got rid of most of my fansites. Took a (re-) interest in the Kennedy family (Teddy the most), lately. Johnny is a fan as well so that works out nice.

I spend most of my time on Facebook so feel free to add me over there. Links are on the sidebar. Take care!

And here I am, again….

I finally got a wireless router for my laptop. Yay! I’m setting up MSN on here and thought I’d post.

I got a hair cut a few months ago. Only a couple inches long in length and I wore it spiked up all over in messy spikes. It’s growing out and now I like it this way, too. I have photos but they’re on my Facebook and MySpace pages (both under OckGal).

So I went from Edward Herrmann, to Fred Gwynne and now to Dudley Moore. I became a Dudley fan in middle school and when I got a computer (after high school) I made a website called Dudley Moore – Come Again. I recently moved it to a better host, redesigned it (several times) and gave it a new name.

Forever Moore –

Check it out some time.

In other news, I got together with my old best friend whom I hadn’t seen in about 10 years. I’m not good around people, but it was a nice experience.

Went to the Olive Garden with my mom, yesterday. Delicious meal! My mom is the best person, ever. I love you, Mom!!!!

Well, drop me a note on the chatty thing if you see me online. Until next time….

Okay, so it’s been quite a while. I got on this chat program thingy and it had a new update, so I got it and here I am. Was this always called Windows Live?  I always called it MSN.

Anyway, my most recent celebrity interest was Edward Herrmann. Watched all the Gilmore Girls episodes, overplayed The Lost Boys, made a fansite (for both Ed AND Max). After watching the Munsters movie that had Ed as Herman, I decided to watch The Munsters TV show and even though I used to hate it, I started diggin’ it and before I knew it, I was a Herman fan, which lead to being a Fred Gwynne fan. Weird how that works. And so, another site was born: the Fred Gwynne Experience.

I recently got a cell phone. Not that I use it enough to pay for it for 2 years. Nice to have it, though. Now if I could just get over my phone shyness.

My space, not yours.

Why do I keep thinking that this MSN thing and MySpace are the same?  I have quite a few friends on MySpace, but what do I need this MSN thing for?  Sure, it’s pretty, but I don’t even have a use for it.  Anyway, here’s my MySpace if you’re interested.  I guess I post there more than here.  Or not.  I dunno.

People suck.

But I won’t bother to get into that.

I decided to get a new screen name.  The whole Alfred Molina/Doc Ock stuff is getting on my nerves.  Because of the ungrateful idiots who have no respect for me or my sites, not because of him.

AIM screen name which may change soon cos I’m not sure I wanna stick with it:  xxxSAAVIKxxx

*waves to MSN friends*

I think it’s about time for another entry.  This one will deal with things I hate.  The list would be far too long if I did general hate things, so I’ll keep it to a shorter “things I hate about people.”  Even that will be long.  Okay, so it’s about friends.

I hate….

-When a friend says they’ll be back on later to chat, they come on and they never say anything.  Glad I stuck around for that.

-When a friend only talks to me when they have a problem.  Everything I know about someone should not be 100% negative stuff.

-When people I barely even know (whom I don’t even recall telling) wish me a happy birthday, while my friends that knew about it don’t say sh!t to me before, on or after my birthday.  Yet, I’m supposed to be interested in every little thing they do in life.

-When a friend asks me to do something to help them out, I agree and we discuss it a bit, we’re supposed to continue the chat later, but the friend never brings it up again and then went and did it without my help and without bothering to even tell me, “Stop thinking of how to do it, cos I don’t need you to do it, anymore.”

-When a friend hardly knows anything about me, and doesn’t care to ask, but expects me to know things about them and what’s going on in their life so I can give advice.

-When a friend tells me things and then denies them or acts like they never said it when I bring it up, later.  Then I’m supposed to ignore the fact that it sounds like a bunch of bullsh!t and lies because their story never stays the same.  And I’m also made to feel stupid because I don’t know the updated version of the story.

-When a friend says things that make me look forward to something, or get my hopes up about something, and then they pretend it never happened.

-When a friend knows how I feel about them, but they say things to make me admit my feelings and then make me feel stupid because they go back on whatever it was they said.

-When a friend says they’re sorry for doing something, but they keep doing it over and over again and have lame excuses as to why.

I’ve only had real life friends who walked all over me, used me and ditched me for other people.  I’ve had enough of that.  I thought my internet friends were different, but surprise!  Some aren’t.  Some are the best and never do ANY of the things listed here.  And then some….well some have done everything I listed.  And I still consider them a friend?  Why?  Because I’ve never been able to say “no” to a friend.  And I don’t like hurting people.  And I’m an idiot for putting up with it, but I’m on my way to taking a stand against it.

When the rain comes.

Wow.  It’s been raining all night and day.  I love the sound of it on the roof, up here.  I’d be content just listening to that sound for hours.  Kristy, I hope you’re not getting too much, up there.

A few (okay, two) of my MSN friends have encouraged me to use this blog thingy more often.  So I’ll copy & paste my GJ entry (since it’s friend’s only) about my birthday, yesterday.


Subject:  Oh, happy day!

Mood:  Loved

Entry:  I had a fantabulous day!

My mom came up around 8am and was the first voice I heard. She wished me a happy birthday and said to get ready to go, soon. We went to the cemetery to put flowers on the graves for Easter. I took lotsa photos. It was chilly. Got gas at BJ’s, first. Left the cemetery, went to Wal-Mart and mom let me get my ears pierced (instead of in NY) for the fourth time. She walked around in crafts while I had it done (both at the same time, this time) and she said I wouldn’t believe her, but when I was getting it done, she had a pain in her ear, where her earring is, enough for her to put her finger there when she felt it. Weird.

We went to K-Mart, I got food, went home and she gave me my ring (10k white gold with 8 hearts and a tiny diamond in each heart). She gave me a pretty card with a poem/story about Daughters on a little card that comes off the actual card. She wrote a nice note, inside. I opened the card from my cousin, the one from my gram, got a vegetarian cook book from my cousin and a Frasier episode guide book from her, went outside while mom weeded in the yard and I noticed one of the diamonds was missing from my ring. She called to make sure they had another (only one white and one gold one left) and they held it for us. We went back to K-Mart (a couple hours later) to exchange it, so I took more photos of the new one and all. There were Easter bunnies at K-Mart and mom said some little kid said that’s not the real Easter bunny cos that one has a zipper on the back of him, lmao!

I got more food, we stopped at McD’s and mom got food and I got a soda. Saw a huge stretch limo across the street at dunkin’ donuts. Mom said it was Jay Leno, lol!

While in the yard, I opened my card from my friend Katie (fuzzy monkey card) and my package from Mel (thanks!) with lotsa cool goodies in there. Candy I can actually eat, little piggy, Soy drinkies, ear wash for Lucky, cute card, lil’ hat.

Mom tolerated me all day. We played some Mahjongg on the computer in the basement. Tried to beat each others’ times. She watched my Mulan DVD that I got for my birthday, she gave me my clean, ironed Let It Be and younger Beatles shirts and my two Bob Ross, Happy Trees shirts. We just recently had cake and ice cream, took a lot of silly photos and pretty much talked about poop puns the entire time we ewer eating, lmao! Good times!

My mom called my gram, in Florida, and I spoke to her. She sang the birthday song to me, we argued (in a nice way) about me being a vegetarian only because people came to my school and showed films (mom said it was in Health class) and said how bad animals are treated for meat and that’s why I became a veg, but I don’t even remember that, at all. I was into Paul McCartney, he kept mentioning it, I looked into it, saw videos and stuff he was involved with, and that’s why.

Some people online gave me birthday wishes and I had no idea I told anyone it was my birthday, lol! The Wal-Mart girl said I needed ID for my earrings and I didn’t have it, but luckily my mom signed for me (she didn’t think they’d have the earrings I wanted, lol) and then she ran off cos she didn’t wanna watch. The girl said I don’t look 27. The waitress at the Olive Garden (the other week) said the same thing. Mom took me there, yesterday, to eat and I didn’t get carded. Go figure.

Oh, I got a soda at BJ’s, too. Skipped one at Wal-Mart cos I still had the first one. Mom ran into a bank teller at Wal-Mart and it was funny cos she said they always joke about going there all the time and how they’ll see each other there, and this time, they did, lol! I was gonna get a watch there, but the one we saw was at Target, so mom said the earrings were instead of the watch. They had a cool Eeyore one that was like a chain bracelet and the heart watch part hooked on. Looked neat. The one at Target is like a really wide band and the watch is in the middle, with the band behind it. Different pastel colours. Blue was my fave. But I don’t wear watches that often to really need another one.

My gram gave me $20, my dad gave me $30. My mom ran me all over town the past two weeks, lol!

All in all, I had a blast!